Although I am of Christianity, I am using your page as a resource in a paper
that I am doing.
May Lord Jesus forgive you in your sins.
You are still in your twenties and you still have enough time to explore and think as well as ponder. Your entering Islam is not a hopeless matter. As you may or may not know, some of the biggest enemies of Islam, even priests, such as Uday bin Hatem and al-Najashi as well as others were non-Muslims and rejecters of faith and then Allaah guided them to Islam.
In any case, welcome to our page as a user. If you have any real questions, you are welcome to ask at any time.