I am suffering from strong waswaas in all my acts of worship especially istinjaa’ (cleansing after relieving myself). When I use the toilet I just spend too long a time. It became a very hateful place to me for whatever reason. Every time I enter the toilet I cry because of how strong this waswaas is. I do not feel sure of my tuhr (purification) at all. Many things put doubt in my heart like when my hand touches a tahir (clean) place after I washed a najis (unclean) place, so I have to wash that position as well. Also when water of istinjaa’ sprinkles on my feet and body I doubt my tuhr so I have to wash them after finishing.
What is the solution? Many have said to me to just ignore this waswaas. But I do not really know how to make sure I am on tuhr. If the urine touches any other place do I have to wash it or not? If I ignore washing it I doubt and wonder that if I am not pure then my salaah (prayer) will not be accepted. On the other hand if I wash I feel it is really heavy and beyond my ability.
What is the ruling on prematurely ending my salaah or wudu’ (ablution) or ghusl (bath) as this comes to my mind a lot? Sometimes I think that it is not a problem to cut my intention during the act of worship and I just complete it. Other times I think that deciding to cut an act of worship spoils it as I cut my intention as well so I stop it then start over. This matter became also out of my control, what should I do? Shall I continue my salaah, wudu’ or ghusl even if I decide during it to cut it? Or I should start it over then?
These doubts do not leave me since I start my salaah until the end of it. Something whispers to me to stop it or repeat it or start it over again after you complete it. I am tired and this is beyond my ability. Will my salaah be acceptable despite having all these doubts along the salaah? What is the solution? Please help me, may Allah bless you!
What the questioner mentions has to do with a kind of waswaas (whispers from the shaytaan), because purification and prayer are simple matters that do not need such concern. The religion of Allaah is easy and there is no hardship in it, as Allaah says (interpretation of the meaning):
“and [Allaah] has not laid upon you in religion any hardship”
“Allaah intends for you ease, and He does not want to make things difficult for you”
And the Prophet (peace and blessings of Allaah be upon him) said: “Religion is very easy and whoever overburdens himself in his religion will not be able to continue in that way. So you should not be extremists, but try to be near to perfection and receive the glad tidings that you will be rewarded.” Narrated by al-Bukhaari (39).
The remedy for what you are suffering involves three things:
1- Constantly persisting in remembering Allaah, may He be exalted.
2- Turning to Him and asking Him for healing and recovery from this problem.
3- Turning away completely from that which the waswaas is calling you to do. So when you have relieved yourself and washed yourself (istinja’), get up and do not pay any attention to whether your hand touched a taahir (pure) place after touching the najaasah (impurity), or that drops of the istinja’ water landed on your feet or body, because the basic principle is that things remain taahir (pure), and uncertainty as to whether your body or clothes have become impure does not have any effect. You should understand that your body and clothes, the place where you pray, and other things are pure and continue to be regarded as pure unless we are certain that they have become impure. As for doubts, imagination and waswaas, no attention should be paid to them. See the answers to questions no. 62839 and 25778.
Purification and removal of impurity is done by washing the private part; it is not essential to wash the area around it, so do not pay any attention to the water that drops elsewhere, as stated above. Be confident that you are taahir (pure), praise be to Allaah, and that your prayer offered with this purification is valid and accepted, if Allaah wills, for Allaah is Most Merciful and Kind, and He shows mercy to His sinful slaves, so how about those who are obedient and love Him?
With regard to deciding to stop wudoo’ or prayer, that does not matter either, rather you should ignore these thoughts and carry on with your wudoo’ or prayer, because there is no reason to interrupt an act of worship, rather this is waswaas and it does not affect your act of worship, praise be to Allaah. No matter what thoughts of interrupting your act of worship or repeating it come to you, do not pay any attention to that, and carry on with it, and ask Allaah to accept it, because you have done as much as you could, and you have done what was required of you, and Allaah does not burden any person beyond his scope.
Remember this advice, and carry on, and ignore the waswaas, for it is a trick of the shaytaan, but his tricks are weak as our Lord has told us. Be confident that if you ignore the waswaas it will disappear, by the power of Allaah.
We ask Allaah to help you to obey Him and to make you happy by worshipping Him, and to take away the problem that you are facing.
And Allaah knows best.