When I was younger I was very shy. One day when I was fasting what I owed of Ramadan, my father– may Allah have mercy on him – asked me, Why are you fasting? Out of shyness, I told him a lie and said that I was fasting sawm as-saabireen (the fast of the patient, i.e., six days of Shawwaal). I was thirteen or fourteen years old – and Allah knows best – and I have continued to fast the six days of Shawwaal until today. When I grew up, I started to wonder: was I fasting what I owed or the six days? Please note that when I grew up, I began to fast the six days and what I owed, but now I have made a schedule for myself:
The number of years since I reached puberty is nineteen. The days that I did not fast are seven days, but I made it five days because I used to fast – and now I am applying this schedule, and I am still doing that – I fast from Sunday until Thursday, and give zakaah for each day – and Allah is Oft-Forgiving, Most Merciful. Because of shyness, which is deeply entrenched in me, I fasted the fast of the patient, which is six days.
Have I done anything wrong before Allah, because I told my father that I was fasting the days of the patient and I did not say that it was what I owed from Ramadan?