I am twenty-one years old. I went through some physical and psychological problems and did not go to university. I stay at home doing nothing, and I feel depressed. I have lost some relatives who were very dear to my heart. After that, I repented to Allah, may He be exalted, and I began to pray regularly and to read Qur’an, but I still do not know much about religion and I fear the wrath of Allah, may He be exalted. I issued fatwas without knowledge, then I came to know the ruling on that, and I am afraid of the punishment of Allah, may He be exalted. I became very sad and unable to focus. Every time I tried to watch what I say I slipped. I have a problem with wudoo’ because of my nervous colon. When I start to pray, I become very anxious for fear of breaking my wudoo’ and praying without being in a state of purity. Sometimes I deny things and sometimes I do not. I am afraid of the wrath of Allah, may He be exalted. When I heard about righting wrongs, I asked some people to forgive me, and there remains my grandmother, but she has died, and this is what gives me sleepless nights. I am very worried, every time I feel cheerful and repen tto Allah, I am afraid that I am one of the people of Hell and I am afraid of the punishment of the grave. I love Allah, may He be exalted, very much and I accept every test and trial He gives me. I always repeat the words: If this is a test out of love from You, I accept it. I love Allah, may He be glorified, but I am afraid of the evil of my own self and that my sins will lead me to doom. I love and support the religion. I want some words of reassurance that will make me feel that I am following the right path.